Thursday, April 07, 2016,
I found him two months after you played me out and left. He walked into my life on a Monday night in April and I knew that he was it for me. I’d never before experienced that kind of feeling–that knock you off your feet, make your heart skip a beat feeling. But that night, that fateful Monday night, it hit me like a bolt of lightning, and my life will never be the same again.
He, my perfect and wonderful he, is everything you weren’t. He is warm and fun and spectacularly thoughtful. He never tells me that my dreams and emotions are crazy, like you always did. He encourages me, and supports me, and respects me, like you never did. He is the man I always hoped I would find. In all of my picture perfect fantasies, I never could conjure up anybody as wonderful as he.
He and I, share the kind of love that most people only dream of. We laugh and play and celebrate everyday, and we face the darkest of times with our arms around one another. We talk freely about the future, because we know that we will always be together. We love joyously and selflessly, and we love without fear of getting hurt. There are no walls, and no barriers, and we never dare to second guess.
There was a point in time when I was yours and you were mine. I was carefree and blissfully innocent. You were dark and guarded, and all I wanted was for you to love me. For 7 years, I thought you might. I ignored your addictions, your infidelity, and your desire to drag me down, because I really, truly thought you might love me.
But you didn’t.
You loved my lips, and my body, and the my hands felt on your skin. You loved the way you could so easily convince me to stay with you, or give something up for you. Most of all, you loved the way that, no matter what you did, I would always find a way to excuse your behavior. But, you never loved me.
When I figured that out for the first time, the moment you walked away, it crushed me. I didn’t know why I couldn’t get you to love me, no matter how hard I’d tried. I didn’t know how I’d ever be the same again–how I’d ever be as free and happy as I was before you ever decided not to love me. But now…now, I thank my lucky stars everyday that you didn’t love me. Because, if you had loved me at all, I would have never been at that place on that fateful Monday night.
I would have never met the absolute love of my life. I would have never experienced this crazy, delirious kind of love. So, the next time I think that you never did anything kind for me, I’ll remember the one thing you ever did for me. You didn’t love me, and I can never thank you enough for that.
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Monday, April 22, 2013,
i know i know. always never blog because i've always feel tt pictures speak a million gazillion words! :)
so sayang and i have decided to settle down ((((:
hehe but we'll further discuss after he finish his studies because i want him to focus on his degree first.
i'm so excited!! although everything around here is so expensive until i kept suggesting migrating lololololol but i really cant wait for our future together (:
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Saturday, September 08, 2012,
and my leave is coming to an end ))): 2 more months to my next leave! heh heh. yesterday was me n sayang's 5th year. time is really going too fast! doesnt feel like 5 years at all.
thank you my love for everything you have done for me. especialy this year, you've been ultra ultra sweet to me. hehe. just concentrate on your studies and get a better career after grad okay! i love you :D
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Thursday, July 19, 2012,
gardens by the bay ((((:
enjoyed the entire day with my sayang. really the entire day. picked me up 530am in the morning from work, watched vampire hunter, in attempt to get a minion for me in archade, and walking for miles and miles and miles to gardens and back home. thank you for spending your entire first day of study break, with me. i love you very much! thank you for loving me dearly.
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Monday, July 02, 2012,
i want a bear like sonya. pretty please!!!!!
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Saturday, June 23, 2012,
EXPECTO PATRONUM!!!!!!!!!! really enjoyed harry potter alot!! thank you sayang for the wonderful date ((: it's been a long time since we went on dates because it's either sayang's busy or i'm busy or i'm working on weekends )): and so i'm very thankful for today despite the fact that i had a sleepless night and you had a very tiring soccer match before coming by to pick me up (: 3 more months to 5 years! didnt feel long at all i thought 3 years only leh -.- cant wait for you to finish your studies! and may us together be better n better n better (:
OKAY back to reality. starting work tomorrow. really dislike it when my leave is ending ): well at least nxt wkend ORD LO!!!!!!!! n 7 july bonus!!!! so what's after that? (:
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Friday, June 01, 2012,
cant wait for june hols to end.
cant wait to eat orange bowl in stnicks!!!
NOMNOMNOM
sayang if you read this. can you download twitter or instagram? my blog macam dying. hehe. I LOVE YOU!!!!
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Friday, May 04, 2012,
pinata cookies. it's so fluffy i'm gonna die!!!
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Sunday, April 29, 2012,
ohhhhh?? blogger gt app yay!!! now i wont be tt lazy i guess.
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no one comes here anymore!
pls see my fb n if you know me, you know where else to find me ;)))
ps: i love my sweets very very much. thanks for yr lappy!! (using it now hehe)
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Saturday, December 31, 2011,
“I’ve learned a lot this year.. I learned that things don’t always turn out the way you planned, or the way you think they should. And I’ve learned that there are things that go wrong that don’t always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before. I’ve learned that some broken things stay broken, and I’ve learned that you can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones, as long as you have people who loves you."
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